One of my favorite SNL skits lmao
perfection
I don’t even know how I’m feeling right now. It’s like a huge part of me is missing, and I don’t think it will ever come back. A year and a half is a long time to be with someone, and for me every second was worth it. Through all of the ups and downs, no matter what I felt we could make it through anything. The kind of love we had was better than anything I’ve ever had with anyone else; not only were you the love of my life, you were my best friend. I loved every part of you, the good and the bad. You used to tell me that if we really loved each other, we’d love each other for everything. Not only the parts we liked about each other. I don’t think I’ve ever thought like that. What we had was real, the realest thing I knew. I don’t think you’ll ever understand how much you taught me about loving someone, even though I know you didn’t mean to. I never wanted to leave, I still don’t want to. I wanted this to be a life long thing…is that crazy of me? It never crossed my mind that we wouldn’t be together. And now that we don’t have each other, I don’t even know what to do with myself. I thought what I did was right, I just couldn’t handle this kind of stress anymore. I still do, but I still miss you and you’re still constantly running through my mind. Do you still think of me like that? It’s hard to tell now. We’re acting like we never even knew each other, I know that’s something we both promised would never happen between us. No matter what. It’s just hard right now, you know it’s been hard for me for a very long time. I just don’t know what to do. I say I’m doing just fine without you in my life right now, but to be honest it’s all an act. I miss you like crazy. But what’s going on right now is for the better. I just wish we could have said goodbye to each other the right way, not just ignore each other’s texts. I want to say something, but I know it’s best to leave you be and let you go on with your life. Even if it doesn’t look like it right now, I will always be here for you. Forever. Just like I promised you so many times.
I FREAKIN LOVE TOBY
… always have!
